A Milestone with Cole: Our 20-Year Story (So Far)

A Milestone with Cole: Our 20-Year Story (So Far)

I’ve just hit a milestone with my horse Cole that I’ve been looking forward to for a long time: at the end of 2023 we marked 20 years together. And it’s significant to me personally because it’s exactly what I wanted when I bought him as three-year-old. I wanted a horse that I could have for the rest of his life. A horse that would be my horse and maybe my future child’s first horse as well--way down the road, of course, at the time that I found him. I wanted another horse in my life but more importantly a partner. And he’s certainly been that and more. He’s been my closest friend in a lot of ways, seeing me through some huge growth and change in 20 years. He became a trusted constant in my life and a friend who is family.
Maximus: Shortly After He Left

Maximus: Shortly After He Left

I’m at the month mark now and I’m honestly a bit surprised at how resounding the grief feels. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it would be hard, but I thought knowing that we had saved him from suffering would be at the forefront and my rational brain could hold onto that and make it through the hardest chunks. But again, the hardest chunks have nothing to do with rational thought. I miss his presence, his soft eyes, and his gigantic head insisting that I scratch it. I miss the night checks and belly scratches, and the slow way he did everything.