Letting Go Versus Giving Up

Letting Go Versus Giving Up

The heart wants what the heart wants. And sometimes what it wants is a story that it already decided needs to happen, so much so that it’s assumptive, leaving one not even aware of the made-up story. This way of living with my heart set me up for a huge learning curve last year with my mare Dahlia and our relationship. And it trickled down to my whole world with horses as it forced me to think about what I truly want...

Dahlia

I’m telling you, dressage is not for the faint of heart. It’ll expose you. And all of your flaws, not just in your physical riding but in your demeanor, your mindset, your head space. And a horse like Dahlia, she just tells you louder than the other ones typically do. She doesn’t agree with “should” and takes issue with me bringing tension to our time that has nothing to do with riding, ie. the rest of my stressful life. She absorbs that tension and then throws it back to me as if to say, "No. I refuse to keep that for you. Deal with it so that we can actually focus on this now and not the cacophony of the rest of your life."