Letting Go Versus Giving Up

Letting Go Versus Giving Up

July 29, 2024Posted inAdult Amateur Rider, Dreamalot Farm, dressage, dressage horse, farm, hobby farm, horse farm, horses, journey, lessons, letting go, life lessons, Mare, Natural Horsemanship,, Oldenburg Horse, personal growth, Selling horse8 Comments
The heart wants what the heart wants. And sometimes what it wants is a story that it already decided needs to happen, so much so that it’s assumptive, leaving one not even aware of the made-up story. This way of living with my heart set me up for a huge learning curve last year with my mare Dahlia and our relationship. And it trickled down to my whole world with horses as it forced me to think about what I truly want...
Maximus: Shortly After He Left

Maximus: Shortly After He Left

December 15, 2022Posted indressage, dressage horse, farm, goodbye, hobby farm, horse farm, horses, letting go, life lessons, personal growth, retired horse, teachers, tribute4 Comments
I’m at the month mark now and I’m honestly a bit surprised at how resounding the grief feels. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it would be hard, but I thought knowing that we had saved him from suffering would be at the forefront and my rational brain could hold onto that and make it through the hardest chunks. But again, the hardest chunks have nothing to do with rational thought. I miss his presence, his soft eyes, and his gigantic head insisting that I scratch it. I miss the night checks and belly scratches, and the slow way he did everything.